Not one to just cuddle with and what not. A girl that would benefit me if she were around. One that would actually be a great influence to me, like with school work, something like “I won’t reply until you finish your homework.” I’d probably try to do the work as quick as I can just so I’d be able to have more time to talk to her. You know, a relationship like that, with all that other dumb cutesy shit and whatever :3

..You know?

IDK I think that’s just me. I’m just weird like that.

(Source: boohlet)

•  9 September 2011  •  7 notes

Infatuation, lust, desire

•  9 September 2011  •  1 note

I despise everything, but I don’t at the same time.

Things I think I need I absolutely hate, because I’m wasting my time and money on something I’m using to impress people.

I want to impress people by showing how I don’t care.

I mean, doesn’t that defeat the whole purpose of that? Seriously, I don’t even understand why I am the way I am.

Nothing mentally depriving, emotionally scarring, some life-changing event. Nothing.

Yet I’m still this way.

•  8 September 2011  •  2 notes

My friend was acting all sad and what-not through the internet, so I decided to call her and ask if she was okay. I was sort of blasting music when I called, and my iTunes decides to choose the most inappropriate song for a sentimental call.

Her: “Hello?”

My music:”Back that pussy tease a motherfucker

Rub that shit it’s yours bitch, grab his dick it’s yours bitch

Now turn around bitch, put that ass on a nigga, grind on his dick make it get a little bigger”

Her: “Uhh..”

Me: “Oh fuck, my bad, that was my music… HAHAHAHA”

Shit.. LOL

•  30 August 2011

Things are already getting pretty repetitive; go to class, do specific work, write down notes, talk to friends about the past majority of the time, and so on. There is this one girl though..

Rachel I think? I don’t remember, on Friday of last week, the 26th, these two freshmen went up to Ryan asking to borrow a dollar, he said no. I decided to make conversation and said “If you know my name, you can get a dollar.” She and her friend guessed wrong for a good minute, I decided to be nice and just told them my name, and the girl who asked for the dollar said her name was Queene or something like that. The other girl, sort of short, but pretty cute, I’m pretty sure she said her name was Rachel, funny thing was that she had started blushing a little bit when she introduced herself.

With that anecdote, today, at lunch, I saw them while I was buying food. Queene didn’t notice me, but when I looked up, I could tell Rachel was looking at me, either that or she was looking past me, and we ended up making eye-contact, I smiled cause I already started eating chips. I said “Hey it’s that one homegirl who owe’s me a dollar.” Queene looked all dazed and confused, but Rachel seemed like she wanted to make conversation. My oblivious ass didn’t think of it and I just walked away and continued with my day.

SO YEAH. That’s pretty much the highlight of my day. Nothing else special. French is getting interesting, Accounting is as boring as usual, don’t ask about Algebra 2, Chem is fun cause I ‘flirt’ all day with Danh(: World History is alright, entertaining people to talk to all period, English is probably the laziest class I’ll have this year.

•  30 August 2011  •  1 note

So I’ve been thinking a lot about my life, and I noticed I have almost no memory of every good moment. I’ve finally decided to basically have a journal. To record my thoughts, my feelings toward certain things, and so on. As of right now I’m a Junior at Independence High school. Last year my life was a whole lot different, but you’ll learn about that some other time.

•  28 August 2011  •  1 note